Skid WHERE??? SKID ROW.....WOW! Pretty Wicked Episode two

Initially the five things I could not live without were all materialistic. Since the show, I have grown to realize there is a lot more to life than "stuff." I would have to say that today the five things I cannot live without are friends/family, laughter, the gym, music, and great conversation. I guess everything else is nice and of course it is wonderful to have "stuff," but at the end of the day, it is just meaningless! I have realized that "stuff" can be very misleading. When you base your life on "stuff" you are never happy because you are always striving for more. Something else always sounds bigger and better, things get old, and there is never any true contentment. Living a life centered around "stuff" is like trying to find the pot of gold at the end of a rainbow. It is an unattainable goal and you are always reaching for more. You need other things in your life to fill the void. -->

The trip to Skid Row was amazing and awakening. Before Midnight Mission, I never really gave thought to the homeless. I mean I would pass by them all the time considering I live in big city, but I never really stopped to think about it!!!! Going to Skid Row was definitely an eye opener. At first I was seriously scared. I was very far out of my element and all of the people certainly did not look nice and friendly. However, looking back now, I am so glad we went there. It gave me an understanding for people that have so much less in life. It made me realize how much I truly take life for granted. I thought about how much I value "stuff" and how shallow that really is. Overall, I am really glad we volunteered at the Midnight Mission. It was my first charity work, and I will now continue doing charity for the rest of my life. I realized how good it feels to help others.

At the auction I was so confused as to what to donate. I really had no clue who was coming but I definitely wanted to raise the most money for the Midnight Mission. As I looked through my bags I was getting more and more discouraged. I just could not imagine people seriously bidding on my stuff. My only thought was that the only people that would seriously appreciate anything I brought, which was mostly clothes, would be females about my size with my taste in clothing. This freaked me out because for some reason I did not think that would be the demographics for the auction attendees. So needless to say, I chose to think a little outside of the box. I ended up donating a couple hundred dollars worth of gift cards I happened to have in my purse, some nice jewelry, and the hardest thing to part with, my favorite hat!!!!!! I felt that the gift cards would be a very wise choice because they had a face value and would appeal to more people. I thought that is was my safest bet to get definite money for the charity, which was my main concern.

When Ana called Sarah R. out for her fake purse, I was a bit surprised. In a perfect world Sarah R. would have spoke up herself and clarified the situation, but I do not think she was even given time to do so. Luckily, I had nothing to do with it and I was happy to stay out of the drama.ANOTHER ELIMINATION NIGHT!!!!!!! Oh boy...just as nerve racking as last week. It is hard knowing that someone will be going home. This week I was a little less nervous than last week. There was so much drama that the other girls caused and/or were involved in that I was pretty sure I would slip under the radar of even being in the bottom three. I was right! It was Sarah R., Amber, and Julin. I am not sure what I would have done at this point if I were the judges. Sarah R. had a huge flip-out and would not apologize for it and Amber actually left the loft. At least Sarah R. and Amber clearly have room for improvement and change, which I understand is the point of this. Julin ended up going home and I am sad to see her leave, but I would have been sad to see anyone leave.

Blog from first episode of Pretty Wicked

Wow am I in for a surprise!!!! This is not the Hollywood's Next It Girl!!!! The game is to change my "Wicked" ways???? Talk about insult of the year!!!! Well this puts a whole new spin on things!!!! I thought I was supposed to Diva it up, and now I am supposed to self-improve??? Ok so I am a bit spoiled. I am self-centered. I am cold. I avoid all conflict. I say what one wants to hear so they like me and I can use that to my advantage. I am superficial, and I always get what I want when I want it! What is so bad about that? Doesn't every girl wish they could pull that off without making any enemies??? I do it all in a pleasant way. I do not offend anyone. I am not a b*tch...well at least not to your face. I may have different motives, but all in all I am considered a nice person. Ha ha! I guess people just do not know the real me, but how insulting!!!!! I have to change my "wicked ways"? WTF!!!! I might as well be on Jerry Springer show!!!! I am not sure how well this is going to work. I love me. My friends love me. My family loves me. Hell, strangers love me. Why should I change?????

Well I could use a self-makeover. As wonderful as my life may seem, I do kinda hate me, but nobody knows that!!!! And I am not sure I want to share that! Boy oh boy! This is going to be a lot harder than I expected! My first impression of the girls was overall not quite what I expected. I thought I would walk into a room full of catty mean girls, which I was supper worried about. Amber was the first to greet me. She jumped up and gave me a welcoming hug. Wow talk about shocking!!!! I was a bit happy. It broke the ice and made me feel not so nervous. I instantly thought all of the girls were nice. Sarah R and I hit it off right away because we are both from Chicago and have the same name. Ana brought the cutest dog I have ever seen. I was so happy that there was a dog in the house. Jillian appeared to be so quiet, almost like she was above the room and was not willing to converse with us because we were her competition. Vanessa, well she looked like a hooker, but I gave her credit for being so brave with her sense of fashion. I honestly was completely shocked when she mentioned bl-- j--- as her specialty. Wow!!!! Who says that???? Qui...well I did not have much of an opinion of her yet. She just seemed there. I thought Reena was definitely going to be the b*tch of the house. I could see that she was already trying to call everyone out on everything. I was not sure if I was going to like this girl. Oh and then there was Katie, last but certainly not least. I did not like this girl at all. There was just something about her. She reeked a fake and phony aura. I could tell that she was one of those sneaky girls that loves to come off soooooo sweet and innocent, but was made of pure evil. -->

My strategy for winning the competition was quite unclear. The whole game got twisted on me and I defiantly needed a day to rethink how I was going to go about it. One strategy I had was defiantly lying about my age. I was older than most of the girls here, if not the oldest. I certainly did not want any life experience and/or life knowledge to be held against me. I wanted them all to think I was on fair playing grounds. Most of the girls were 23 so I stuck to that age to play it safe. I luckily look young ;)

And for the record, I have had a few boyfriends pay my bills but it was only ONE at a time :) They did it out of love for me and I never once asked for a single penny!!!! I just happen to find men that are willing to treat me as the princess I deserve to be. A rich guy is like a hot girl. They are a dime a dozen!!!! Just because you are wealthy does not make you wonderful. You need more than that. But if you happen to be so lucky as to find a wealthy guy that you have a connection with then life can be nice. Just find one that you get along with and have a mutual respecting and loving relationship with. Well I happened to find that and ever since I have been a princess.

My sash says "total liar." Ha ha! I am not sure how I feel about that. On a scale from 1 to 10, I would like to say that it applies to me at about a 1. But then again I guess I would be lying. I am not sure if I really lie. I just adapt to every situation I am in. I guess I am good at telling people what they want to hear ;) If I could have picked my own sash it would have said "Princess in Pink."When I found out there were no mirrors in the house I freaked out! I did not even bring a compact! I use mineral makeup and there is no mirror on my jar of powder! It would never occur to me to bring a mirror. What kind of house doesn't have one???? I thought it was a joke at first! I was not happy.

I found out that we had to prepare a party for 10 men. At first I thought, oh wow, finally some fun!!!! My ray of sunshine came to a quick halt when I found out that we could not use any outside help!!! You mean we have to cook, clean, and decorate ourselves????? No ordering out? Not even a catering service? Four of the girls went to the store and bought supplies. Oh did I want to be one of the lucky ones to be delegated that task! Shopping I can do! Cooking and cleaning? Well let's just say that the only thing I make back home is reservations!!!! I however did end up in the kitchen. It was not easy! We did not have the proper tools provided in the loft. I ended up making a veggie tray and appetizers. Surprisingly, I truly enjoyed it! I made sure everything was color-coordinated and perfectly placed. It was a beautiful presentation and I really got to bond with Jillian in the kitchen. By the end of the day, I was glad to have made a beautiful display of food

The men showed up and to our surprise they were all blind. My initial thought was more of an ironic humor than surprise. I just could not think of a more clever challenge for us to have. We literally spent all day centered around appearance -- everything from the decorations to the food to our outfits. We even made sure the whole loft was spotless. Seriously, I changed my outfit four times before deciding what to wear. For a brief moment I felt kinda stupid, but within a few minutes that was quickly forgotten. All of the guys were great. They were so down to earth and really seemed to have a great appreciation for life. Not a single one of them displayed any sense of bitterness towards life and or their disability. They all had goals and were working towards good causes. And to tell you the truth, it was wonderful to not be judged by my looks for once. The guys really liked me for me and that made me feel great. Julin won the challenge and Ana lost the challenge. I am not really sure if either of them deserved it or not. I was so busy getting to know the guys that I did not even think to pay any attention to the behavior of the other girls. I do know it caused a whole load of Ana drama though. LOL.

Elimination day!!!!! Oh boy... HEART POUNDING... BREATH SHORT... STARTING TO SWEAT... NO CLUE WHAT IS TO HAPPEN... FEELS LIKE WE HAVE BEEN STANDING IN FRONT OF JUDGES FOR HOURS... DEEP BREATH... OK IT IS OVER!!!!! Jillian went home and actually, I was not surprised. She did not want to change and she certainly did not seem up for the challenge. I personally liked her more than some of the other girls, but I am not here to make friends (I guess).

A Smile Can Save The World

A smile can save the world...... Just a simple smile can reset the entire mood. Just think......I mean really think....a smile holds a lot of power. A smile can change the outlook on everything, not only for yourself, but for others as well.

Have you ever had a down day, I mean a really down day, and then for some reason a stranger walks by and just passes a huge genuine smile and it snaps you back into the reality that life can be happy? I am sure I am not the only one who has experienced this feeling. It changes your whole mood!!! I have made an appoint to try to smile at as many random people as I can and it has changed my whole world. I mean even little thing, like checking out at a convenient store or smiling at a waiter. It is amazing how different people are around you when you give off positive energy. They tend to feed off it and pass it back.....try it some time....just smile at someone....it makes a day!!!!

Smiles can also bring happiness to relationships. Remember the last time you were down and you confided in a friend and they just gave you a big smile???? I bet it made you appreciate the happy times. Try to start off every conversation with a smile and see where it takes you.

A smile can also be good for the one smiling!!!! I once heard that laughter is the best medicine for the heart. I hold that to be very true and guess where laughter starts.......yep that is right.....a Smile!!!!! We all create our own realities and how we view life is how we life life. The mind is a very powerful thing and will believe anything you feed it. Try feeding your mind happy thoughts and see where it takes you! Hopefully it will take you to a smile and then you will have the power to pass it on to others.

Happy Irish days!

Happy St Patty's Day!

Time to bring out the green! I love this time of year.....especially in Chicago! It is a city full of Irish spirit. I am mostly Irish and proud to say so as today is the celebration of the Irish.

For those of you who have never been to Chicago for St Patty's Day, I highly recommend putting it on your to do list. Due to the city's historically large population of Irish heritage, it has become quite the holiday here. This past weekend was "Green Green Everywhere To Be Seen" There are always two parades.....one down town and one for the south side of Chicago ;) Every bar is loaded with people in green, plays Irish music, and most bars even have green beer. I went out Saturday and felt as if I was in some sort of "Halloween taken over by the Leprechaun" Everyone was in amazing costume. Sears (and yes I do mean "Sears" It will always be "Sears" I do not care who buys it out!) Tower is all light up in Green as well! The whole city just screams Go Irish!!!!

In the sense of family and tradition, I also love St Patty's Day. My family usually all goes to Church and has a great Irish dinner in celebration of the lovely Blarney based country. Sunday I went out for a Brunch with my mother, grandmother, brother, and one of my aunts. My Grandmother was so damn cute....she even wore a green bow-tie and a Green top hat. We had lots of laughs as we drank in good spirits to Irish music and of course corn beef based dishes! From the moment we sat down my Grandmother persistently tried playing match-maker between myself and the waiter...ha ha ha...poor guy...she wouldn't let up about it. I really love that woman! It is so important to cherish the moments we have with our loved ones.....for as we all know, one day they will not be here. Wow!! I could cry just thinking about that!!!

Today, considering it is Tuesday, will not be as eventful as Sunday. I will just go to my mother's house and have dinner there. Well perhaps we might blend up a grasshopper or two....it is St Patrick's Day after all !!!!

life as a modern day princess

Hi everyone! As I am sure you all know, this is Sarah C. I see there has been quite a lot of controversy about my life style. I told myself I was going to try to ignore the "haters" as much as possible but instead I choose to elaborate on the topic. I would love to allow all of the viewers to take a deeper look into my life and what it means to be a princess. Although some may view it as a bad thing, I firmly believe that ALL women deserve to be treated like a princess and they should never settle for anything less ;) Call me a Disney freak, but I believe it is true. there is no reason why we can not all live Cinderella lives or at least strive for them......and for the record, I have had a few boyfriends pay my bills but it was only ONE at a time :) They did it out of love for me and I never once asked for a single penny!!!!


I believe that every girl at one point in her life has the desire to be a princess. we are taught that from an early age via fairy tales. Some girls have a Father that is close to them and they experience what you would call a "Daddy's Girl" phenomenon. That typically satisfies the crave for the inner princess desire. I on the other hand, had a different story. My parents divorced when I was only three years old. I was the oldest child and always wanted to be a daddy's girl but I guess it never worked out that way. we were not very close and he became very preoccupied with his new marriage and new children. My mother struggled her whole adult life trying to raise my brother and I to the best of her abilities while battling my father the whole time. His wife was jealous and resentful and made sure to destroy the relationship between my parents as well as the relationship between my father and us. I saw from a very early age that my mother struggled financially and emotionally. She worked like crazy and always had to budget. My father was quite successful but it was never passed our way. I grew up knowing that I never want to experience the struggles my mother did nor did I want my future children to go through the pain that I did.


As I grew a little older and started dating, I found a very scary world out there. You hear about men and then you wonder how a woman could not hate them all. So many of them are jealous, insecure, mentally abusive, physically abusive, or unfaithful. I witnessed so many great girls get torn apart, heart broken, and or abused by their boyfriends. I saw so many tears and saw so much pain and frustration. I could not seem to accept it. I could not understand why anyone would willingly choose to go through that. I do not think any guy is worth it and there is no law that says you should stick it out in hopes of changing him and making things better. I saw a common link that most of the girls stuck around out of fear that they would be worse without the guy. as if it is a bad thing to be alone!!! In my eyes there is nothing worse than the girl who cries oh poor me but yet keeps running back to her bad relationship.


I chose to play a different game. I was not going to even consider putting up with any bull shit and if it came my way I would have no problem walking away. Life is short and I sure am not going to waste my time on a guy that is not worthy. RESPECT is key and without it no guy is worth your time. He should cherish you and be your number one supporter no matter what it is you choose to do in life. He should make your needs just as important as his own. I am also old fashion, not saying it is right for everyone, but I believe the guy should be the provider. As I started holding these standards, I found that I only met quality guys. I found that for some reason I fell into the hands of moral and successful people. That happened to open my eyes even more. I realized that there was a different world out there.....one where I could be treated like a princess and that I could be valued and cherished and due to the success spoiled as well ;)
This discovery worked out great. I was traveling, fine dining, experiencing life the way life should be. Now I am certainly not saying that a rich guy is the end all and final answer to life. A rich guy is like a hot girl....they are a dime a dozen!!!! just because you are wealthy does not make you wonderful. You need more than that. But if you happen to be so lucky as to find a wealthy guy that you have a connection with life can be nice. One that you get along with and have a mutual respecting and loving relationship with. Well I happened to find that and ever since I have been a princess.

Do not get me wrong. I do not sit around and just do nothing. I do keep myself very busy. I have acting classes, I go to the gym, I read a lot, I do lunch with friends, I hit up clubs at night, I travel, I go to the spa, I visit my family often, I can always find something to do and I love working on new projects.


So there you have it. I am a princess and I am proud. I only do what I am passionate about. But the best pat is.......I LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST!!!!! I have no regrets and if you can not handle that stop reading because I will post more ;)